When D-Day hit, I was shocked. I was, as we put it in WORTH group, hit by a truck. I desperately studied and poured myself into learning what I could do to fix the situation. I read many books and obsessed about my situation. For months I felt like I alternated between zombie and emotionally distraught crazy lady. I even walked out of church meetings crying. WORTH group helped me to have a private place to release some of the anguish I felt inside in a safe way. It has taught me so many things about addiction and recovery that are invaluable.
My husband has chosen not to be in recovery, but I know that I am. I still have my bad days, but when new information comes along I have tools to cope with it. I feel confident in the answers I receive from the Lord about my marriage, and I know that no matter what happens, if I trust him fully and do my part to keep his commandments, I will be ok. He will restore what has been lost above and beyond what any mortal could do.
I can't recommend the therapists with LCS and WORTH group enough. They do a fantastic job. You are not alone. There is hope and light at the end of the tunnel. More importantly, there is light through the tunnel. Stay strong and don't lose heart.
Two years ago, I was a wreck. Eight months ago I thought my marriage would end. Now, I'm still here and I am generally happy. I know where my strength and my joy comes from.
It's a long journey and it's not over, but I can truly say that I am so thankful and blessed to have this opportunity to learn from. I can't say that I would change it. I have gained much more than I have lost, through turning it all over to God and trusting Him. I have learned many lessons that I do not believe I would have learned without this trial, so for that I am thankful. I absolutely would not have the relationship with my Heavenly Father that I do now, and to me that is worth any pain and sorrow I have experienced. It does get better. The pain lessens. Smiles come easier. One day you won't cry all the time. Be patient with yourself. It will take time, but healing is possible.
Love,
A Sister of WORTH